Today's guest blogger is Ashley Davis Bush, LCSW. Ashley is a psychotherapist and author living in southern New Hampshire. She is the author of “Shortcuts to Inner Peace” and “Transcending Loss.” For more resources and information, visit her website at www.ashleydavisbush.com.
I frequently write about the importance of gratitude as a practice in living a life of more joy, more happiness, more love. Occasionally, someone will challenge me,
“It’s easy to be grateful when life is going smoothly, but what about when times are really tough?”
“All the more reason to cultivate gratitude,” I generally respond.
Recently, however, my 46 year old husband was diagnosed with colon cancer. After a CT scan, a colonoscopy, and major surgery, he’s now embarking on the journey of chemotherapy. This life changing and often overwhelming experience has pushed me more than ever to walk my talk.
It is extremely tempting to focus on all the negative aspects of my ‘life interrupted,’ from the giant fear that surrounds this diagnosis to the gut wrenching financial strain of huge medical bills. Then too there’s the more fine-tuned negativity of resenting this life detour and feeling self-pity at the stress of managing a full schedule without a full capacity spouse.
Yet, deep down, I know that I have the choice as to whether I shine the flashlight of my attention on my difficult circumstances (no matter how legitimately worrisome) or whether I shine my attention on my many gifts and blessings. Yes, I would say that upon going through this challenge, I need to choose gratitude now more than ever.
My gratitude list includes but is not limited to:
Gratitude for Western medicine
Although it’s easy to take our medical advancements for granted, I have found myself blown away by and extremely grateful for diagnostic tests, skilled surgical teams, anesthesia, efficient nursing staff, a clean and competent hospital, major medical health insurance, pain medication, and even the miracle (and potentially life-saving quality) of chemotherapy. In another time, in another country, these resources would not be available.
Gratitude for support
There’s nothing like a crisis to bring out the kind and generous nature of people. I have been moved to tears by the compassionate support of family, friends, loved ones and even strangers. While specific visitors, meal deliveries, gifts, flowers, and cards have been much appreciated, the heartfelt well wishes and prayers offered through the venue of social media (primarily Facebook), has uplifted me during dark moments.
Gratitude for the human body
While I am more aware than ever of the fragility of the human body, I am also more in touch with its miraculous healing properties. To think that a body can be cut and sliced and then can heal itself is incredible. And the ability of the immune system to protect the body from germs and infection leaves me in awe of the design of this beautiful, physical machine.
Gratitude for my faith
With every new challenging life circumstance, I find myself ever grateful for my deep faith in the Divine. I typically rely on my spiritual practices (prayer, meditation, Shortcuts to inner peace) and open myself to trusting that everything is as it should be (even if it isn’t always as I would have it!)
Gratitude for the comforts of home
I find that the simple comforts of home provide a web of security that keep me grounded.
Gratitude for the love between me and my husband
I am grateful for the extraordinary love that we share every day and I am secure in the knowledge that even death cannot diminish our eternal love.
Gratitude to know that I am not alone
As I hear stories of others who have survived cancer (or not survived), and stories of tragedy and triumph, I feel myself connected to the human condition. I know that my husband and I are not the first, nor the last, to be on this journey. Sickness and eventual death are ever-present realities, part of the package deal of being alive. I realize that I am not alone and I am grateful for that.
Gratitude for the cancer itself
Perhaps this is the most challenging gratitude of all. However I am aware that this experience with a life-threatening illness can, if I let it, increase my awareness, heighten my mindfulness practice, and sharpen my appreciation for life. Whenever a challenging situation presents itself, I always find the best question to ask is, “What lessons can I learn from this?”
As the surreal shock of diagnosis has faded to practical accommodation and finally to radical acceptance, I realize that gratitude will help me cope both now and every step along the way. And so I nurture it quietly, steadfastly . . . and gratefully.
Each first Friday of the month, the topic here on my blog is Gratitude in preparation of the Day of Gratitude I host on my Facebook Page each month on the second Tuesday. Please join us July 10 in celebration of and with Gratitude. Want to contribute? I'd love to hear from you!